Yesterday Isadora was cruelly murdered in the street. Both wheels taken. If she is not quite dead she is certainly now maimed and broken and cannot run free.
There is nothing sadder looking than a bike like this.
Here I would like to add: thieves are so....mean! That's my bike you've just ruined. What have I done to you ever?! And not just my bike, but Isadora: a living, feeling (inanimate) object. She a person!
But then again..she isn't at all. It's an it, not a she, and I've certainly made myself feel worse by personifying her.
I have a tendency to do this but I just like the magic a name brings to things. Names are power. I know this from books. They told me so.
But if you give something a name, are you increasing the risk of heartbreak (and mental instability) when things go wrong?
Take Isadora. Now I'm faced with a choice: buy new wheels, or buy new bike? In the January sales, what is cheaper? And can I really betray Isadora by replacing her? She carried me in a child seat when I was a baby. How could I just throw her away?
But the point of having a bike is to save money, and won't I save money in the long run by buying a better bike and not having to fix it up all the time? Isadora is so old anyway.
And then I feel heartless. What a conundrum.
Because I not so materialistic I don't think, but I do become emotionally attached to some of my belongings. Don't we all. But in the end, is that good for me? If I just thought of it all as "stuff" would that make me less sad when it gets ruined or lost?
Actually no. I can help it. Stuff is rubbish. I'd much rather have Isadora than a bike.
But the question remains: save her or move on?
On a happy aside, I want to tell you about the man who cheered me up yesterday without know what he did. I was of course in a bad mood all morning. Then on my break a man appeared and handed out teddy bears to me and four other girls, and a kitkat to the guys. They came out of nowhere and he just disappeared around the corner on the way out.
Apparently he often gives out presents just because, but has just really upped his game with Teddys. It's just a pity he wasn't giving out bike wheels but never mind.
There are some great people around aren't there?! So thank you Rob from armoury. I'm naming the bear after you.
